Sunday, March 10, 2013
Pressing forward toward the goal, facing upward, I'm embracing what life is right now. Not what could have been, not what I should have done. Both feet are in this moment, no more dragging, no looking back.
Starting today, I am honest. Not that good-girl brand of honesty that means telling a stranger when he drops a dollar. No, I'm that fearless, uncomfortable brand of truth-telling. The kind that requires vulnerability when I want to put my armor up. The kind that compels me to speak when I'd rather be quiet. The kind that tells you what I can do, what I like, what I don't like, what I need, when just going along would be easier in the moment.
Starting today, I will appreciate God's gifts and His discipline, knowing that without both, I would not be who I am. I will see the lesson in each challenging moment. I will wait patiently to understand.
Starting today, this will be my attitude. This will be the little reminder I whisper to myself, kindly, patiently. It's not only about shedding regrets and forgetting pain. It's also about knowing that nothing I've done in the past--none of the successes or feats--is more important than what I choose to do today. I am not defined by who I was, what I did, how I made people feel back then. I am defined by what I am and who I am today.